LOVE Me Or LEAVE Me

Last friday, I decided to stay at my grandparent's house in Paranaque for Kim's 18 birthday, mommy and daddy's despedida and fiesta. Needless to say, we had fun.

We went there around 4pm and decided to do some "wine tasting" with cousins and Kim. I decided to bring the girls at Mall of Asia to buy some alcoholic beverages for a night of Basic Alcoholic Beverage Drinking 101.

We got there around 7pm and took our time in choosing the right wine/alcoholic beverage. I chose Bacardi, Baileys for her intro 101  and Champagne to take the edge off. (LOL)

After that, we went to YellowCab for dinner. Kim, Jackie, Inah, Nikka, KC and I ate 18" New York Pizza, 10" Hawaiian Pizza and Chips with Cheesy Salsa. We took pictures, talked about Kim's birthday and made fun of everyone. It was sort of her pre-18th birthday celebration. We kept on laughing the whole time. By 9pm, we went to seaside for henna. My cousins wanted to try it out. We ended up going home almost 11pm.

When we got home, we couldn't really celebrate her pre-birthday party because a neighbor/family friend passed away next door. It was also her last wake. We decided to stay indoor for our drinking session. Jackie, KC, Inah and Nikka liked Baileys better. Kim and I decided to drink Bacardi Apple. We were wasted by 1am. Kim was all red. I was too. By 3am, we went to bed and the next day para kaming giant tomato because of welts scattered in our body. Buong Saturday, Kim was so worried about her skin. I kept on teasing her na she's no longer an alcoholic beverage virgin LOL.

By nightfall, we decided to sleep in a huge tent outside our grandparents house. Para nga lang kaming nagcamping, we even had our midnight snacks around 1am. She officially turned 18 today. Dapat may party but hindi lahat ng plans nasusunod.

It's a good thing we have some back up plans for her birthday. It didn't go like how we planned it a couple or months ago due to financial constraints with her family. My uncle renovated my grandparents house so don na agad napunta yung money. I talked to them a couple of weeks ago and planned a getaway celebration in a nearby beach resort. It didn't push through as well because Mommy and Daddy arrived from California. They stayed here for almost 2 weeks and naging busy lahat. Kim's birthday took a backseat kaya when I arrived last friday I decided to splurge a little for her kahit hindi pa niya birthday. And since Fiesta today at my grandparent's place, Zash, Shaun and Sharlene dropped by. Too bad they missed our the girl night out qne the drinking lesson 101 for Kim.

I still want the birthday party at the beach to push through. I just need people to pitch in a little. I can't shoulder the expenses alone eh. Hopefully, someone would help hehehe. I want her to have fun din naman kasi lalo na now that she's 18. As I've learned through the years, time is precious and life is too. So we should make the most of it.

Anyway, I just got home. Mommy and Daddy went back to California na din kaninang 9pm. Kim's birthday by 12 midnight is officially over but I know the party has just started so I'll try to keep the dream alive LOL. Sana this coming week beach party na,

HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY TO EVERYONE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMY!

If you're wondering what my blog title is all about - well - these are movies and books that I've watched and read this weekend.

I would like to share my two cents about all of it.

THE UGLY TRUTH

I wanted to watch this movie during its movie premiere but I was so busy with a lot of stuff that I haven't got the time nor the company to be with. I don't think my younger cousins would appreciate this kind of film. Anyway, I love Katherine Heigl. She's amazing in this movie. I am a fan of her since her "My Father, The Hero" days. I think acting wise she's okay in this film. It's a bit raunchy but as the title suggests it - It's the ugly truth about men and women when finding love. Men based it on sexuality. Women based it on their so-called "ideal list." This movie made me realize that women like to feel secure first in love before diving to the next step. On the other hand, men are more likely to be more random about the situation. They later make assessment on whether the girl they slept with is someone they could spend more time with. However, this movie also makes me realize that eventhough men and women are so different when it comes to their approach in finding a partner, they're are still drawn to the fact that the person they're with should be someone they're comfortable with. If a guy and girl is comfortable with each other regardless of the situation or topic, they are immediately drawn to each other. That's how Katherine and Gerard became a perfect match in this movie. The movie will give you the lowdowns on love and sex but it would also make you realize some other things. You will notice it once you watch this film. I'm giving it a 4 out 5.

THE PROPOSAL

This movie made me laugh and cry. Sandra is definitetly good in making romantic comedy movies. Her personality is so quirky. She can make you laugh and make you cry then again it's probably because the movie is a good one. Ryan is also fun to watch. Their chemistry is good. This movie kinda reminds me of "While You Were Sleeping." The main girl and guy hid something to the family of the guy that once they tell the truth something bad could happen to the oldest member of the family. I like how they focus the story in making it funny for the audience. Siguro if they lessen the funny parts the movie would be a total snooze. One thing na nagdala sa movie was it's witty, funny lines. I was laughing until the middle part of the movie. I cried lang sa last part. The part where she needed to tell everyone the whole lying thing. It wasn't tearjerker pero I got teary eyed because I could really feel how much it hurts for Sandra's part to be on that position. From the very start of the movie kasi, you can really tell na she's a very lonely person kahit yung persona niya sa office is a cold, bitchy woman. In the end, you'll see the walls of her falling down and makikita yung vulnerability niya. I give this movie 4.5 out 5 just because it made me feel different emotions after watching the film.

THE BEAUTY AND THE BRIEFCASE

My cousin gave me this external hd that has movies in it. One of those is this tv-movie. It's a little cliche because I've seen this kind of role from Reese Witherspoon in Legally Blonde and Isla Fisher in The Confession of a Shop-a-holic Girl. I grew out of those kind of movies and this one brought me back to those times. Hilary shouldn't play this kind of role na eventhough the script is a bit mature pero she should stop playing stereotypical roles of a blonde girl/fashion/cosmo dream/perfect bf must-haves kind of thing. Aside from the fact na irritating yung voice ng mga ganitong kind ng roles and yung actions nila, the story is a bit cheesy. Mejo shallow yung storyline. I don't think women in their 20s would love this movie. Maybe if you're 15 and you're starting to enjoy the fashion life and boys - yeah makakarelate ka. Even if the role of Hillary Duff here is 20 something, it feels like her characterization is too immature. I'll give it a 2.5 out 5. Not bad but not my kind of movie.

Hush, Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick

This is the book that I just finished reading a few days ago. This reminds me of Twilight Saga. I am fan of the saga and I am familiar with the story. This one is almost the same as the Twilight except of the vampire and werewolf thing. This book is about a fallen angel named Patch. His wings were stripped down a long time ago and in order to get it back he needs to save someone and be her/his guardian angel. As a fallen angel - a bad one - he needs to kill. Unfortunately, he fell in love with the girl and the rest is history. SOUNDS FAMILIAR???? Just like what I've said para siyang twilight binago lang yung characterization and situation but when you analyze it parang same din kasi he can't kill the girl because he's in love with her. He'll protect her from other fallen angels. Mejo mixed reactions yung akin about this book. I kind of like it. I even named my new netbook as "Patch" but at the same time parang I feel like ripped off siya ng story ni Stephenie Meyer. If you try to write stories na almost the same yung story line then readers will compare it to the first book that they read na same ng flow ng story. I like the concept of the fallen angel but I wish it was not about a young girl in HS again na he needs to kill then later on he'll protect because he loves her. It would be nice if Becca Fitzpatrick tried a different approach sa character niya na si Patch. Maybe change the story to a bad boy Patch who died and later became a fallen angel. He was given a task to do to reach heaven but it becomes complicated when his task is about his girlfriend or something. I think it would have been way better then again it's just my opinion. It's still a good read for teens and young hearts like me.

It's been 103 days since I lost interest in blogging. My last blog entry was made 90 days ago and at that time I forced myself to write something for a dear friend of mine who died 103 days ago.

One of the reasons why I stopped blogging for quite sometime was the fact that my "thinky" died out on me last year. I had to use my phone and relatives laptop/desktop to finish my work. Another reason was because I lost someone dear to me this year. I didn't know why I suddenly lost interest in blogging my life. I just want to spend my time with the people that I really love. Life is fast. It's unpredictable. I just want some "breathing moment."

Also, it kind of make me sad that she's gone because she used to read my blog entries all the time. I know that I won't be seeing her in my view page anymore but I know she's watching in heaven for everybody she loves.

To start of my so-called time away in blogging, I spent most of my time with cousins. I did my usual routines and was able to finished everything in good faith. I became more cautious with my father's health problems and we were back and forth in Perpetual Hospital for his regular check up with Dr.Luna. Fortunately, he is okay and healthy.

I've also been trying to improve my relationship with God by praying the rosary every single day. It was one of my new year resolutions. I've been doing that for a couple of months now and I haven't missed a beat so far. Mostly, I pray for forgiveness, protection, guidance and blessings. I always mention my friend's soul, my mom and tatay's soul to be at peace. Good health for family and friends. I'm getting use to that kind of routine. I figured... may 24hrs sa isang araw, why not spend 20 minutes in praying everyday. It's not a bad deal or a waste of time. Besides, I'm used to that kind of routine since my high school days at St.Paul College where we had to pray every single weekdays 3x (before our first class, before lunch and before going home). I really recommend this to my friends and family kahit na ano pa ang religion nila. Spend 20 minutes with God everyday. It helps. It really helps.

Then I also spend quality time with cousins a few weeks ago in Canossa just to unwind. It's something that I always need but haven't got the time to do it or the company to be with. It de-stressed me from a lot of things that's why mas happy na ako now. Lalo na after Chie got me "patch" - my new love hehehe. Thanks so much cuz. It's hard because with everything that I had to sacrifice last year financially and materially - ito yung something na pwede kong mabili but I sacrificed that "luho" for something or someone na mas important. It's a good gift. I consider it as a blessing from above through my cousin's generous heart. LOL

I was so excited about it that I tweaked everything the night I got it. THANK YOU. MUCH LOVE Chie.

It's definitely one of the reasons why I got inspired again na magblog. Losing a friend, dogs, thinky - so much to comprehend pero God always comes through no matter what talaga.

I don't want to consider myself na religious na but this year made me appreciate everything more and it greatly improved my relationship with him.

The summer is not over yet. The election is 10 days na lang ata or less and Kim's 18th birthday is 9 days to go. Mommy and Daddy are here in pinas. Life is good. Hopefully, I can make things even more special for those that I love.

I'm definitely back.

I celebrated my birthday last November 20 with loved ones. No party just a good day/nightout with my family and friends. I decided to spend it with Edward Cullen and the rest of the New Moon fanatics LOL.

My birthday started out around 11am in French Baker. Dessa and I had our brunch before watching the movie. Around noon, we were inside the movie house with the rest of the moviegoers. The movie lasted a good 2 hours or less. We then had our late lunch at Shakeys. We talked about old friends, Edward, Jacob and Eclipse LOL. I'm a fan of the Twilight Saga...not the movie but the books. I read it way before the movie buzz circulated around the world. I love the fact that they made a movie adaptation of it though.

By 4pm, Dessa left me at the mall and I met up with Tita G and my cousins. They wanted to watch New Moon so we or should I say... I watched it again for the 2nd time that day. We then had our dinner in Mcdonalds before I went home. Papa prepared a nice birthday dinner for me. We talked for a while and had a great time as well.

My birthday this year was way better than the ones I had a year ago when my father forgot about it. It was a simple day but the things I did with my loved ones are something that I would always cherish for the rest of my life. I am still thankful for the blessings I received and will receive every single day. I also want to thank Jon for his present. He didn't have to give me anything but he actually spent a lot just for me. THANK YOU.

As for the NEW MOON review... Hmm...It's okay. Like what I've said I'm a Twilight Saga Book fanatic. I like the movie but I love the books better. The effects were way better in New Moon but there were some snooze moments for me in this film. New Moon is my least favorite out of the Twilight Saga. I'm not a Jacob Black fan kasi and talagang I didn't enjoy the part sa book about him and Bella. It was a snooze, blackout moment for me pero I think the actors did justice sa mga characters nila. I think Taylor Lautner is hot and did a pretty good job. It just so happen na New Moon is my least favorite kasi kaya I feel like I didn't enjoy most of the scenes.

But I can't wait to watch ECLIPSE next year. I heard na it will be shown around June or July 2010 which is a good thing because I don't need to wait for my next birthday again just to see the movie adaptation of this Saga. I think this one would be exciting. Eclipse is my favorite out of all the Twilight Saga. Mas action packed and more vampires. Hopefully, maging maganda yung movie.

Also, I've been hooked to So You Think You Can Dance Season 4. I know it's already a re-run of the past seasons ng SYTYCD pero I love Mark Kanemura, Joshua Allen, Katee Shean and Courtney Galiano. I love their dance routines. I'm also waiting for the season finale of The Amazing Race 15. I'm a Meghan-Cheyne fan. Too bad the Globetrotters are gone na. I would love to see them sa final 3. In this season, either Meghan-Cheyne or Brian-Ericka sana manalo. I don't like the brothers. They play dirty and I'm not sure if it's Dan or Sam pero nakakairritate yung pagiging yeller/nagger nung isang brother.

Anyway, I am excited about my DLSU Human Bio reunion at Lucille's place in Laguna. I can't wait to see my college friends again. I'm sure to go but I'm hoping na wala ng problems na mangyari. I'm a little worried about papa kasi. He's been having stomach problems lately. I told him to take some laboratory test para malaman yung condition niya. I am hoping na this is just a minor thing. I don't want him to get sick or to have some health problems. Although I know it's inevitable lalo na pagtumatanda but I am still hoping na he'll be okay.

That's just about it... November is my month so yon lang nangyari sa life ko now. 29 and Beyond... There's no way of denying it na talaga. I'm getting old and I'll have to get use to it na.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAMA JEAN (RIP - 16), TATAY PETER (26), MOMMY (25), TITA ROSE (15) and RAINE (27)

My father and I went to Manila Memorial Park last October 30 around 3 am. We were the first one there. The security personnel told us to wait for 5 am before we can enter. Every year, we always visit our dead relatives early to avoid traffic and crowd of people. However, this year we decided to visit mama and tatay early due to the bad weather we've been experiencing lately in the country. May mga minor damages din pala ang Manila Memorial Park from Typhoon Ondoy. When we arrived there, the management were trying to fix everything. It was my first time to visit MMP na parang walang tao talaga in broad daylight. Usually, cars come in and out sa place and as early as October 30 may mga families na in their Mausoleum or tents. This time wala talaga.... We were the only ones na may picnic setting sa place LOL. Most people just brought flowers and candles then leave agad after an hour. I guess most of them were scared of the incoming typhoon that time.

Anyway, I prepared foods such as tacos, hash browns, cheese cake, bacon and tuna for our trip to the cemetery. My father even brought red wine for the 2 of us. We had an okay time. I slept in the car for a few hours and we had a good conversation until dusk. We were supposed to stay there until dawn of October 31s but I received a message from Jon about the weather forecast and decided to leave early.

Papa and I left the cemetery around 6 pm and by dawn strong winds hit Luzon. Typhoon Santi almost scared the hell out of me. We heard roofs, garage gates and other metal stuff being dragged in our street. Good thing typhoon Santi, in terms of rain, was not as strong as typhoon ondoy. By noon, everything seemed okay and back to normal. The weather went from windy to sunny. Parang di nagkaron ng typhoon but the weather is still cold.

That same day was also the 8th birthday of my cousin Jiro. I wasn't able to attend his birthday but i gave him money as a gift. I heard he bought a lot of toys and food. It was also their school's halloween party and bingo night. I heard a lot of funny stories about the halloween party since it was about someone I had a run-in early this year. Honestly, Karma is the only BITCH is really like lol. I also treated papa on his birthday at Reyes Barbecue and gave him money din to buy something that he likes. I also took care of the kitchen duties last week at his place. I cooked him pasta penne alfredo, beef-potato patty, chicken tinola, pork in pineapple sauce and chicken in tomato cream sauce for the whole week. I also watched a lot of scary movies for the past few days which was what I was looking forward every last week of October.

Aside from that, I opened to my father my plans of studying/working abroad. I tried a couple of colleges and universities. English Bay offered a good academic/work opportunities but as of the moment we still couldn't decide on it. Hindi naman kasi cheap ang expenses don. It would take a lot of planning and thinking to make it happen. As of now... I'll just go with the flow and embrace every opportunities that would come my way. I'm keeping my option open.

I have so much plans for this year and I am hoping to make some of it happen before the year ends. I rarely blog due to the fact that my thinky died last July. I still have to find a way to replace it or wait until someone would help me replace my thinky. In the meantime, I'm just updating myself through my phone or in desktop.

I also helped papa in arranging his SSS Retirement Benefits. Yep, he's 60+. He wants to use his retirement funds na. I am helping him process it. We also went to Bacoor Municipal just to check for his voter's ID. Sobrang crowded don last Tuesday. Aside from those things, nagkaron din kami ng disagreement about a certain issue. My father wants to buy a gun pero papalicense niya even yung pagcarry non everywhere. He asked Hanna, Dona and Tita Rose for that as a gift. I'm not really into the gun thing not to mention he'll pay 100k+ for everything. He wants to have it by January. I'm still trying to convince him not to buy that thing talaga. It's evil for me eh and sayang yung money. Hayy naku... boys and their toys talaga.

I'm also getting ready for my New Moon Movie Date with a couple of people. My schedule is totally booked for that week. I can't wait to watch a new movie again. I need to unwind a little after all the catastrophic (lol) financial backdrop a couple of months. Oh and yeah, Thank God Renz passed all his 1st semester subjects. It was something we're all hoping for because it wasn't easy for him to get into a good school this year. No pressures though...been there, done that. I don't want him to feel like he needs to do well every time. All work and no play makes "jack" a dull boy.

Anyway, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Uncle T, Uncle E, Papa and Jiro and Happy Burpday in advance to Matthew (RIP), Mama Jean, Tita Rose, Boyband Shane, Tatay, Mommy, Raine and MYSELF.

++ Been watching Amazing Race 15 and I'm hooked to Meghan-Cheyne Team even the Globetrotters.

Scorpio Astrology October 23 - November 21

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It took me a month to update my blog due to the fact that my "thinky" passed away a couple of months back. My tech resources ran out when Daren and Don left the country LOL. I had to endure the noisy and crowded netopia to check my emails and update my blogs/networking sites. Honestly, it sucks big time. I missed having my laptop with me everywhere I go. I am hoping though that by the end of this year or possibly this month I will be able to have a new one na.

Before I give you the lowdown of my September 2009, Let me just say this:


"MY HEART GOES OUT TO ALL THE VICTIMS OF TYPHOON ONDOY LAST SEPTEMBER 26, 2009."

Now To Start-off, early last month I had to stay at home and take care of everything since my father had to visit Tita Rose in Iloilo. I took care of the bills and the groceries every week. It was something that I'm used to for the past months since papa has been back and forth in Iloilo since July. My cousin and her husband stayed at my place as well.

Last September 16, Tita Beth celebrated her birthday at Glorietta 4. Tita G, Jiro and I joined them in Makati. We met at Starbucks and ended up watching "In My Life" which I found funny and heartwarming at the same time. It was a good movie for the whole family. Everyone can learn something from it or they can somehow relate to one of the characters in the movie. I give it a 2 thumbs up. Good acting to the main cast.

After that, We went to North Park Restaurant and had our dinner. It was a nice family day/night out which we rarely do since everybody's busy with their own lives and career. I got home tired but happy.

On a much darker note, 3 of our dogs died. Dobie-the-house-elf, Mr.White and Mr.Black died a week apart. No one can explain why they died. Clyde, a cousin of mine who is the one assigned to feed the dogs couldn't give us any reason why it happened. He just keep telling us that they were strong and energetic the day before they died. Honestly, I think he made a mistake in feeding or cooking the foods. (YEAH, our dogs have their own food - no leftovers for them. Papa likes to cook lean ground pork/beef for the dogs - sobrang expensive to feed them and aside from the usual dog foods pa yon). He feeds them like they're human beings not animals LOL. Everything is well cooked and the food is tasty. Imagine sa house namin - there are like 2-4 people lang pero our rice pagniluto can feed 10-15 people LOL because of our dogs. He buys lean ground pork/beef for them every week. It cost a lot pero he doesn't mind kasi he is a dog-lover and so do I. Unfortunately, 3 of them died this September. I feel bad because Dobie was my father's favorite and the only female dog.

A week before Typhoon Ondoy, my cousins and I planned to visit Candy Fair in Meralco Avenue. Thank God we weren't able to go. I decided to convince my cousins not to go because of monetary constraints. The Candy Fair Event was scheduled the same day Typhoon Ondoy hits Metro Manila. I was thankful because if we decided to push through the plan of attending the event, we could have been stranded somewhere in Pasig. We would have been one of the "missing family members" that day.



A month worth of rain in less than 24 hours was something I never imagined to happen. I was watching the news all day and it was heartbreaking to see what was happening in Metro Manila. I have so many reasons to thank for and that same day I realized all of it. I am thankful that no one in my family members were stranded, missing or flooded that day. Typhoon Ondoy hit Metro Manila the hardest but most of my friends and family members were okay. However, a few friends lost a lot from this disaster. I have a friend in Provident Marikina who I lost contact that day and Jon's family house in Cainta was also flooded. Good thing I heard from them the next day. Both of them including their family members are all safe. They were able to transfer somewhere before the flood went up to their roof.

It was devastating to watch the news lately. Most of them are all about the aftermath of typhoon Ondoy. Metro Manila became WATERWORLD last Saturday. I was fervently hoping for the rain to stop to avoid more damages and more victims. The typhoon was like God's wrath. It was scary talaga. I kept on listening to Jam Radio Station since they offered information regarding the typhoon instead of playing music. I heard a lot of callers announcing their worries and asking others to help them find their family members. Everybody was in deep contrition that night.

A lot of people from the government and media keep telling that last Saturday was not the time to blame others for this disaster. I think they couldn't really stop people from laying the blame to some politicians in the country. It was inevitable just like the typhoon that cause major devastation to the country. We weren't prepared for it but we should have been because typhoons in this country is as common as the traffic along Metro Manila. Last Saturday, the government and their funds weren't ready for it. In some way, lahat tayo may mali from the LGU to the people. I hope this tragedy will serve as a lesson for all of us. Natural disasters are normal talaga. No one can stop it but people can do something to minimize the effects of it in their lives.

I wasn't affected by the flood but I learned a lot and It's nice to see people helping each other regardless of their status in society. Well, I know not all naman helped wholeheartedly. Some kasi I think are using this tragedy as an opportunity for the coming election. But I am proud to those people who worked their ass off in helping others kahit na delikado pa ang life nila in the process of helping others.

Recovery from this tragedy won't be easy but it is possible one step/day at a time. Many lost a lot of material possessions and some even lost many loved ones but everything will soon be okay. God has his reasons for everything that we went through. Hopefully, we should take this shocking experience as a lesson to learn and become more united as one.

I also heard that Typhoon Pepeng is a super typhoon and will hit the country anytime this week. Let us hope PAGASA is wrong about this weather forecast.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JONJON (5), DAREN (13), TITA BETH (16), JAN (19), SIM (26) and HANA (30)

LET ME SHARE SOMETHING REGARDING THE TRAGEDY...

God knows what will happen tomorrow, next week, next year, the next decade. He knows what will happen in the world. More importantly, He knows what will occur in your life and can be there for you, if you've chosen to include Him in your life. He tells us that He can be "our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in times of trouble." But we must make a sincere effort to seek Him. That doesn't mean that those who know God will escape difficult times. They won't.

Reality tells us that we will experience problems in life. However, if we go through them while knowing God, we can react to them with a different perspective and with a strength that is not our own. No problem has the capacity to be insurmountable to God. He is bigger than all the problems that can hit us, and we are not left alone to deal with them.

Naturally when tragedy like this strikes, we cry from the depths of our souls..."But God, how could You let something of this magnitude happen?"

We have to keep in mind....

God has created humanity with the ability to choose. This means that we are not forced into a relationship with Him. He allows us to reject Him and to commit other evil acts as well. He could force us to be loving. He could force us to be good. But then what kind of relationship would we have with Him? It would not be a relationship at all, but a forced, absolutely controlled obedience. Instead He gave us the human dignity of free will.

God came to earth to rescue us. "For God so loved the world, that he sent his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God sent the Son into the world, not to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through him."

God knows the pain and suffering we encounter in this world. Jesus left the safety and security of His home, and entered the hard environment we live in. Jesus got tired, knew hunger and thirst, battled accusations from others and was ostracized by family and friends. But Jesus experienced far more than daily hardships. Jesus, the Son of God in human form, willingly took all of our sin on Himself and paid our penalty of death. "In this is love, that he laid down his life for us." He went through torture, dying a slow, humiliating death of suffocation on a cross, so that we could be forgiven.

He knows how hard it is... God gave us warning before, we just didn't listen and chose which path to take. God wants us to learn from our mistakes. He will never leave us nor forsake us. He brought this to test us and he will make us rise from it one step at a time.

I got inspired to write something about my special someone when a very good friend of mine tied the knot last week. It was an expected thing to happen since they're really are in love with each other but the wedding was really a surprise. I'm happy for her and her hubby.

Anyway, one of the reasons why I want to share my story is because I think it's time for me to be more open about it. I'm the type of person who likes to keep things private. I don't like bragging about it or sharing my "nice moments" with family and friends unless I'm being asked. I have no idea why but that's how I do things in my life.

I met him since I was 18 years old. We started from being an acquaintance to good friends and now we're best of friends. I consider him as my other half since I met him - the male version of me. He didn't become my boyfriend for years. He became my best buddy in all my guy friends, my shock absorber, my spartan and troy and my gibraltar. His presence in my life is one of the reasons I'm most thankful for. I never really expected in a million years that we will become more than just friends. But it happened...

He became my special someone when I turned 21. We broke up a year after that because I was too caught up with my school situation and so was he. I got sick and he was still there for me as a friend. We didn't get back until I turned 24 but we've always maintained a special relationship.

I survived so many trials in my life because I have him around for comfort. He knows everything there is to know about me. He makes me laugh when I'm sad, makes me smile when I'm worried and makes me feel special when I'm alone. He never gives up and that what makes him really special to me. One of the few people I trust with just about everything. I am thankful for him everyday.

I used to remember way back in "yester years" the things we used to do. We're not exactly the typical couple. We're both very private and maybe that's why we clicked through the years. He is the oldest out of his 6 brothers. He's a deep thinker, very practical and very witty. One of the people I know who could challenge me all night in word games, poker, name that actors/actresses and name that movie trivia challenge. We both like to join the Amazing Race Asia someday and is very much addicted to tennis. We can talk about Wimbledon and French Open for days. When I'm busy with some things in my life, he updates me by texting me the latest match of the season. He's a "Federer" and I'm a "Nadal" fan. Although, he admits that Nadal is his "man-crush" lol. We talk about what's on the news and other world highlights. Our relationship is beyond the usual "bf-gf" thing. We matured throughout the years and became more patient with each other.

I used to remember the fights we had. He used to be hot-headed and so am I. When he got mad, I fought back. He's a firestarter and so do I. We clashed in those first few months together as a couple maybe that was the reason why things didn't work out. But inspite of that, we managed to stay friends. We became more aware of each other's moods. We adjusted to each other's temper and before we knew it - we're back to being a couple. I was dead scared to try it again because his friendship is way important to me but I'm glad I tried. Since we went back together, things became really different - better different. We're like this old couple who would talk about things in a calm manner, debate about some opposing opinions we have, argue about our differences but in the end - we don't end up breaking each other's heart. We listen to what each other has to say. He listens to me and try to compromise on some things in our relationship.

You don't just get that kind of relationship unless the two of you have been together through thick and thin. It's still a mystery to me why we are together for more than 11 years. He's a goodlooking guy and yet he settles for someone like me. I'm not bad looking more like ordinary and simple and he could have picked better looking girls but instead he chose me. I don't have the perfect skin, body type or attitude but he's been there for me throughout the years. He quietly helps me through tough times without my family's knowledge. He's been there for me...always.

I sometimes feel scared of losing him again just like before. The funny thing about it is that he knows what I'm feeling before I even realize it myself. He comforts me about our relationship and he never gets tired of re-assuring me about his love. I sometimes feel guilty because I don't get to spend more time with him than I should have. We've been in one of the most trying times of our relationship. Being an adult isn't easy. We couldn't focus on our own relationship as much as we wanted to. He's busy managing his family's businesses since he's  the oldest and I'm busy helping my own family as well. But inspite of that, we manage to make things work. I celebrated his birthday playing poker and other board games. He treats me to a fun day out and fancy dinner in different posh restaurants that I won't usually choose on my special day. He bought me gifts that I never asked him to give me. He even helps me when I'm having financial difficulties and gives good advice on how to handle my own money. He gives and he never demands. He keeps telling me that he's working hard now not just for his family but for us. Maybe someday - we can think about us - that's how he says it. He wakes up 5am and works until 8pm or 10pm managing their businesses. He's hardworking so we don't get to spend time watching the latest flicks or dining out. We don't even celebrate our monthsaries/anniversaries just like any other couples out there. We just treat our time together as a special event. We have plans on going to Boracay or any other resorts but none of it is a full-proof plan since we don't have that much free time yet. It's a good thing he's not the "demanding" kind of person in a relationship. Overall, he's a great guy, not perfect but way better than those that I've known from friends and family. I, on the other hand, needs some more maturing. I'm the prissy one. I demand a lot and even tried to be unreasonable a couple of times. I'm working on it everyday because I want us to work.

Bottomline, I'm really happy to have him in my life. A friend of mine who got married this year is also lucky to have found her soulmate. It makes me feel good to realize that inspite of the "lackness" and "nothingness" in some areas of my life, God gave me something or someone that he thinks I deserve. I couldn't ask for more.

I'm have a lot of imperfections and problems in life but I guess I'm just really lucky to have someone like JON in my life. Really, really lucky...too darn lucky - in fact.

CONGRATULATIONS NOODLES and JUN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE SHAUN and TITA GERLY

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEFF.

11 years and counting...

There will be some changes this month for myself. I don't think it's a drastic change but there will be some minor adjustments about my routines and some other stuff in my life.

First off, my sim number. This is kind of weird because there's really nothing wrong with the one I'm using now. I just have to keep my promise to someone that I would change my number for good. I'm sort of sad about it because I like the number that I'm using but since it's a request from someone I care about then it's not really a big deal anymore. I already bought a new sim pack last Thursday and anytime this coming week I might change my number for good. But before I do that, let me post here some of my favorite quotes from friends and family members that inspired me throughout the year.

• "The most humbling statement we can say is 'I am nothing without God' and our most powerful statement is 'with God I can do anything' ... GodBless. - From Angie
• A fact: You can always get the TRUST of a man but not his LOYALTY and you can always expect a woman's LOYALTY but not her TRUST. Gandang Morning! - From Angie
• People always think that the most painful thing in the world is losing their love one but the truth is... the most painful in the world is losing yourself in the process of loving too much. Good Morning - From Michel
• I really like this thought: "If it's not you it will never be you no matter how much I love you. But if you really are for me, then we will always be, no matter how I set you free - From Michel
• Love is far different from commitment. Love is a gift which anyone can have. While commitment is a sacrifice for love that not everybody is capable of. It's just so sad that the word commitment is enclosed with duties which makes it heavy, which makes other people afraid. They may be ready for love but not for commitment. Come to think of it, Isn't love enough to keep a commitment? or... Isn't commitment enough to show you love? - From Angie
• Best message I received so far: They love you but they are not your lover. They care for you but they are not your family. They are ready to share your pain but they are not in your blood relation. They are...FRIENDS! True friend scolds like a DAD, cares like a MOM, teases like a SISTER, irritates like a BROTHER and finally loves you more than a LOVER. Thanks for being a friend! - From Noodles
• I want to love someone whose heart has been broken so she knows exactly how it feels and won't break mine. Goodnight! - From Eric
• There will come a point in your life when you'll get tired of chasing everyone, trying to fix everything. It's not giving up. It's a realization that you don't need all those you go after, because what you need are those who stood by you even if you never needed them. Nyt! - From Hazel
• It is amazing to realize that living in simplicity gives true contentment. We go as we come to this wold. In the end, nothing is ours to keep. So, let's share what we have...smiles, knowledge, hugs, good words, time and love. Love More. Hate Less. Ignore Critics. Love Life. Morning Po! - From Hazel
• If we are really in love, we hardly find any reasons to justify our feelings. We are dumbfounded as realization begins to strike our minds. Love was never like, 'I prefer my woman to be like this' and 'I prefer my man to be like that' - Preferences can change. You would just find yourself caring for that person no matter who he/she is or what he/she was before. It's hard to explain but it's true, that when it comes to love... There are no boundaries. No Yardsticks. And no reasons to hear why we love that person - From Arnel
• Appreciate life itself even if it is not perfect. Contentment is not fulfillment of what you wished for but appreciation of what you have. God Bless! - From Mariel
• Dear God, The lady reading tihs is kind and strong and I'm proud of her. Please help her live life to the fullest and bless her to excel in her chosen field. Help her shine in the darkest places and let love flow in her path. Please protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you most esp. in keeping her safe. God Bless! Now you're on the clock! In 9 mins. something will make you happy. Please share this prayer to 9 sisters you love... - From Zash
• Every person in our life comes for a special reason...to touch or to make someone's life beautiful. That's what you are, that was what you did...and I'll always be thankful for  that. I love you so much! - From Jon
• Bob Ong vs Juan Tamad's view about LOVE: Bob Ong - ang pag ibig parang elevator. Kung puno na bakit mo pa ipagsisiksikan ang sarili mo gayong meron namang hagdan? Di mo lang Pinapansin. Juan Tamad - Bakit mo pa kinakailangan maghagdan gayong babalikan ka naman ng elevator? Kelangan mo lang maghintay. O di ba may sense naman si Juan Tamad? Tamad lang talaga... - From Michel
• I hate people who breaks promises but I must hate myself more because everytime the promise was already broken, I still expect it to be done. I love you so much. - From Jon

These are the quotes I have in my phone. As soon as I change my number all these will be gone na rin. <sigh>

One of the biggest changes I have this month was my online schedule. I used to be online 24/7 but since my "thinky" died out on me last July, I now spend at least 48 hours per week na lang online LOL. I missed my old routine but it's okay na rin na nagbago. I get to do some other stuff. I'm still a late sleeper though. I read books na lang most of the time or spend my nights talking to Jon. I missed plurking everyday lol - uhh.. no ata twitter na. I don't get to visit my Facebook and Friendster often and I don't get to blog na rin masyado. But once I have the opportunity to go online naman, I make sure na I visit and do the things I want to do. Lately kasi I've been borrowing Don's laptop or Daren's. Mine died after 5 years of being my confidante LOL. With 600+ pictures, 500+ music files, 40 bookmarks/rss feeds, 30+ ebooks, 20 folders and 2 family videos - nawala na si "thinky" - nagtirik na ako ng candles. I missed that laptop kasi everywhere I go palagi ko yon kasama. <sigh again>

Other changes for this month would be my hair style (lol) which I think is in need of a visit and pampering kay "Joy" pati na rin fingernails and toenails ko (lol). I really need to organize my schedule better to do more things for myself. I also want to save up kahit na mahirap ata gawin since my expenses are skyrocketing. I'm planning to buy my own laptop again or if not wait for my relatives to give me one (hmm...ahem! ahem!).

Also, I need to make some changes with my financial strategies. I really need to be more careful about how I should spend my money. I need to save up for myself and at the same time help my cousins din. I would really need a better financial plan to make things a little better for myself. Hopefully, I could do it without any more problems.

I also need to talk to my father about some certain issues with one of his sisters. I'm having some hangups kasi about it and I would really like to settle that issue before it's too late.

Overall, I think puro minor changes naman lahat but I would want it to happen. Midstream kasi yung changes...I already planned some things in my life lalo na pagdating sa financial stuff. It would be difficult to change things midstream but I think it's doable naman. I just have to think twice before making my final decision.

As of the moment, I'm stuck here sa house and I badly need some time away from all of the things that are happening here. We have some ... well minor or probably major problem regarding one of our family member. It's not much of a big deal but we're all worried. Hopefully, he'll come into senses and talk things through with everybody so things will go back to normal. I believe kasi na everything can be solve naman if you're willing to listen to each other. I'm crossing my fingers na everything will be okay soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DOMINIQUE in New Jersey (uhh... I think it's dominique's bday but I'm not really sure)

Also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance to SHAUN and TITA GERLY.

Belated Happy Birthday to JEFF.

And Now...I want to stay young na lang again LOL.

Life must really hate me. I've been really busy lately. I'm trying to help my cousins from their school needs especially Renz now that he's in college already. My expenses are skyrocketing LOL. I can't hardly keep up.

I want to hangout and have time for myself but I couldn't because I have so much responsibilities. I can't just turn my back from all of it. It would be difficult later kasi. How I wish life was as simple as when I was still young. Now I know how hard it is to become an adult. When I was still in school, I always wanted to grow up fast. I wanted to do things without any restrictions from parents. I wanted to be independent and try new exciting things. I did all those naman but the other side of it - the ugly part - the responsibilities - that's a different story. I hate responsibilities but I also know that I have to do it and be able to handle it because that's what life is all about. I used to think I'm doing a pretty good job but there are times talaga na I feel downright disappointed at myself for not making the right decisions, not doing the right thing or not being able to handle my finances better.

Anyway, my "thinky" died out on me. After 5 long years with 20+ folders, 500 pictures from family and friends, 40+ bookmarks/rss feed that I don't remember anymore, maybe 30+ e-books, 2 videos and 600 music files - iniwan na niya ako. I'm so sad because it was one of my most prized possession. I always bring it with me wherever I go. Nakarating na yon from North to South. I rely on it most of the time because it keeps me updated and organized. I do everything there from planning, researching and blogging. It sucks!

Now, I'm using Don's laptop or Daren's laptop if they're not using it. I can't go online 24/7 na rin. I want to buy a new one and I know I can do that but with my expenses skyrocketing this month or in the coming months pa, I might not be able to afford it. I need to decide kasi which is more important - having my own thinky again or helping out my cousins.

I'll just think positive na lang for now. Hopefully someone in my family will buy me a new one LOL. I'm crossing my fingers - wishful thinking - im counting the stars and wishing every 11:11 lol.

We also have a visitor here sa house. My cousin and her hubby from my dad's side of the family are staying with us. They're okay. They're nice. I got the chance to get to know them since I'm not really that close to my father's side. Just a couple of days ago, she lost her 2nd child (well it was 5 weeks pa lang naman sa tummy niya). She's having problems kasi in getting pregnant because she's already 37. I am hoping na God will grant her and her husband a baby someday. She deserves it naman. She'll be a good mom.

I also found out that my aunt (again at my father's side), the one that I'm not fond of, is 7 months pregnant. It shouldn't be a big deal but she's the type of woman who thinks na DSWD ang tatay ko. She'll ask for money and the old paawa effect...

Good thing Tita Rose and the rest of the family have a back up plan. Papa is with her right now. Too far away for my aunt to reach. He'll be staying there for 2 months maybe...

BELATED HAPPY BURPDAY TO Clarence and KC... (sorry I didn't make it)

BELATED HAPPY BURPDAY TO TITA TET as well in New Jersey.

And CONDOLENCE to Daren's family. His dad died a couple of weeks ago. He's a family since he married Hana last year. Condolence buddy.

GET WELL SOON JON....

I've been really busy this month. I spent most of my time working my ass off to help those that I love. It's something that I love doing for them. Most would probably tell me that I'm too nice or too helpful, even at times neglecting my own needs which is true but I have no regrets. I want to help and it's important for me to make sure that they're okay. That's all that matters.

Since school started a couple of weeks ago, I've tried to provide some of the things that my cousins need. In order to make ends meet, I've asked Tita to transfer her kids from another private school and provided for their uniforms and school supplies. Although I feel bad that Gilbert wasn't able to study in his chosen school, I somewhat feel relieved  that he's now enrolled in another university taking up computer studies. I'm currently helping him with his school needs like books and uniforms. I'm also trying to save for his per term tuition fee. It has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride this month but I'm still thankful that we were able to surpassed this month without any hassles.

I'm pretty sure it would still be another hell of a month this July or maybe for the whole year but I'm sure that I can be able to help them one way or another. Hopefully, my usual routine would go back na. I really want to take some special classes this year. I just hope I can also do that while being busy with all the things I need to take care for the coming months.

Aside from being being busy with all those that I mentioned above, I've also been addicted watching Koreanovelas at night in my thinkpad. It has become a hobby of mine na LOL. I've also watched and bought tons of movies. It's my way of destressing myself.

* BELATED HAPPY BURPDAY TO YHAN, CLARENCE and TITA TET.

* Also, CONGRATULATIONS TO YHAN and ROB for having their 2nd son a couple of weeks ago in California.

* Oh yeah, I was really shocked this morning to find out that Michael Jackson died. Tsk! RIP.

Last April, mommy and daddy arrived from Glendale, California. They stayed here for almost a week. I visited them and stayed at BSA Tower Condominium. At that same week, a cousin of mine from the US asked me to buy her some stuff for her future baby. I bought all the things that she asked for and it was quite a long list.

Anyway, I was able to watched some of their home videos in the States and it was great. I miss them a lot and I'm hoping to see them soon. Also, a cousin of mine from Batangas celebrated her 25th birthday. I was supposed to attend her birthday bash but I suffered from minor migraines in those times. I got worried and went to visit my optometrist because I had the feeling that it had something to do with my eyes. I was right. I was diagnosed of astigmatism and that kinda sucks. For now, I'm still under observation and I'm still suffering from migraine attacks sporadically.

When mommy and daddy went back to the States, Tito R decided to visit Pangasinan this May. I decided to join them since I needed a vacation as well. I shelled out money for the foods and extra expenses in Pangasinan while Tito R, courtesy of his son in US, shelled out money for fare and lodging.

We arrived in Dagupan Pangasinan last April 29 around 1 am. We then went to Tito R's house in Lasip Grande. We also decided to walk around the town at 2 am to look for a bibingka store. We slept at around 3 am. The next day we attended Mommy Diling's birthday and celebrated the town fiesta or should I say the famous Bangus Festival in Pangasinan. There were concerts and other sports activities in the area.

Since I still suffered from minor migraines then, I decided to skip some of those activities. I stayed home and watched TV all day . Our next stop was the CSI Supermarket in Lucap. We bought some groceries for our week long stay with them and some extra foodies for our trip in the coming days.

Shrine of Our Lady of Manaoag - the first place we've been in Pangasinan. We attended the mass and the waited for the holy water blessings. We lighted candles and prayed for whatever we want to achieve this year. We also had our brunch near the church. After that, we went to Nepo Mall for a late lunch at KFC.

Todalingan Beach - I'm not sure if I spelled it correctly. We went there the day after our Manaoag visit. We went swimming from 10 am until 2pm. We thought we wouldn't be able to go since the weather wasn't really that good but by mid-day the weather turned great. We rented a cottage and their amenities to fully enjoy our day. It wasn't a well-known resort nor a high-class beach. It's just one of those places that most locals know about. We've experienced good surfing waves and some funny moments in that place.

Baguio City - After basking in the sun, we went to Baguio. It was less than 2 hour drive from where we were staying. Unfortunately, we've experienced some major setbacks on our way up. As we were busy taking pictures of the beautiful view in Kennon Road, we collided into another vehicle in one of those crazy zigzag roads. It was a shocking experience because we never expected anything like that to happen. The collision happened so fast that both vehicles were damaged severely. It was also raining that time due to typhoon emong. The good thing about that incident is no one was hurt badly. Everybody was alive except for the totaled vehicles and traffic that was building up along Kennon Road.

After settling the problems in Kennon Road, we reached Baguio City by 10 am. We went directly to SM Baguio since it was pouring hard that time. It was freezing cold. We took pictures everywhere, we even joined one of those aerobics exercises held inside the mall for fun and tried the Walk On Water activity. It was fun.

By lunch time, the rain finally stopped and we proceeded to Botanical Garden. We ate our lunch there and visited the art gallery inside. We met artists who made my cousins sketches for 15 minutes. We also met the 2nd tallest man in the world who was there at that time. We took pictures with him. Then, we went to Mines View Park were we bought some pasalubongs. After that, we visited places after places. From the Mansion to Wright Park Horse Ride section and then our last stop was the Baguio City Market and SkyWorld where we bought most of the souvenirs and pasalubongs. We even visited the wagwagan stores in Session Road. Renz bought a Vans shoes for 400 php. We raided every store we saw in that place. We reached Pangasinan again by 8pm that same day and we were dead tired. Thankfully, typhoon emong hit our side when we were already in Pangasinan. I think the news exaggerated a little bit about how strong the typhoon was. It was windy and raining hard but it wasn't as bad as the ones I've experiences last 2007 - Milenyo or something. A lot of the places in Pangasinan were flooded due to some problems in their dams and rivers.

We went home days after that. It's nice to be back but I've been itching to come back because I really enjoyed my north adventure. Traveling from different places and speaking with the locals in different language is kinda fun. I also miss their boneless bangus. It's to die for. I've also been addicted to Taipan Noodles since I went to there. I love sweet-spicy noodles.

Hopefully, I could come back again some time or maybe travel in to another place again with some friends or cousins. Traveling is one way to destress myself from all the turmoil and toxicity of life. Another good thing about that vacation is that I was able to talk to Sim again after not hearing anything from each other for nearly a month. It's good that everything's okay again in my life.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZASH (20), SHARLENE (15) and KIM (17) and BELATED HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO EVERYONE.

I never had a real mom, but

I've had a mom that's real

In all the things that mom should do,

And all the things moms feel.

I never had a mother, but

I've had a mother's love.

I've had the kisses and the hugs

That therapists speak of.

I guess I should be crazy with

The things that I've been through.

But I've had all a kid could need

Because I have had you.

This poem is dedicated to my Mama V (lola) for all the wonderful things that she have had given me throughout the years. She completed some of the missing part of my life as a child. Thank you.

I also want to dedicate this poem to my Tita G, Tita Beth, Mommy, Tita Tet, Tita Gerly, Ninang Kate and Tita Rose. Happy Mother's Day to all of you and thank you for everything.

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As for my late mom - Mama Jean....

Mama please don't worry 'cause

I'm doing really well,

Even though I MISS YOU on

This Happy Mother's Day!

Wishing you were with me 'cause

In that case I could tell

You all the things that happened to me

While you were away.

I LOVE YOU even though you can't

be with me just for now.

And I know you Love Me, Too,

'Cause I'm your little girl.

And I'm sure that you will come

To me Someday, Somehow,

And I will see you look at me

And know that you have smiled.

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To all my friends - Happy Mother's Day to your mom or to you...

During the early week of March, I helped Tita G and her kids in their school activities. Jiro joined the Little Mr.ESA competition. He didn't win but he enjoyed the event. He told me that he would like to join again next year. In my own opinion, he should have won the crown but I won't question the decision of the judges because what matter is that my cousin enjoyed the whole experience. I'll try to upload the video of the pageant and his talent day some other time.

Also, I was busy last month doing research. I spent most of my 2nd week of March, filing for my Voter's ID and other personal documents. I planned to take some training courses with a friend but I might reschedule that one by June of this year. I was busy driving back and forth to Mayor Strike Revilla's office and Mayor Aguilar's office for some important documents. It was pretty tiring. I wanted to try something new about my career path and it was quite an experience to do all those things again.

My cousin Jackie celebrated her 15th birthday. The one gift that she wanted for me to give her was a pair of contact lens. I bought her a pair of chocolate coffee colored contact lens. She loved it. Tita G also celebrated her birthday and I bought her a cake that day. I also celebrated Jon's birthday and we had fun. He's always busy with their family business. We just decided to make it special by spending it at their place with his family. We played literati and it was fun. I kicked his ass.

Tito Robert also celebrated his birthday and I bought him pancit malabon. It was also his kids recognition day at ESA. I attended the event and took some photos as Renz received his awards for Best in Values and Best in Arts in his batch. Jiro was awarded Best in Filipino for Grade 1 students. I treated them at Red Ribbon and then I also attended Reema's graduation at CSOL. Her mom asked me to be their photographer that day. It was fun and I had a great time as well.

Just last week, Renz graduated high school. I watched as his high school life closes its chapter and a new one begins - his college life. He wants to study at Iacademy in Ayala, Makati. I think he wants it really bad. He wants to major in Animation and probably work in PIXAR someday LOL. Hopefully, It will come true.

That same night, Jiro accepted his award as 3rd honor for the Grade 1 students and Jackie accepted hers as the 3rd honor for the 2nd year HS. It was quite a memorable night not just because of the event but of some setbacks we've experienced with a certain person that night.

I don't really think she deserves a space her in my blog but what the hell - she deserves to be creamed anyway. Enough of her...

After the graduation, I bought foods at KFC - Renz favorites - a pizza hut, belgian choco ice cream from Selecta and a spicy bicol express at Gerry's Grill - ALL TO GO. We decided to eat at their place na lang.

I also had an interesting text message from a friend of mine. Dessa texted me about an old friend asking for something that he wants me to give him. I didn't reply to her text not because I'm mad but because I'm already done with that past. I tried to help him 2 years ago but he excluded me from helping him. Since then I vowed to myself not to interfere with anything related to him and the person he was involved with. I used to help them a lot but I learned my lesson the hard way. I was the one who suffered the most because of trying to help/interfere with everything about them a long time ago. They were my friends but they didn't treat me like how I treated them. I'm done with it. I'm not friends with either of them anymore so I don't want to be a part of anything related to that ever again. End of story.

Hopefully, I can take some time off this summer. I badly need a vacation again but we'll see how things will go this month. I hope to experience a lot of life changing moments - GOOD life changing moments LOL.

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ARCHIE (30 wooohooo!), INAH and NIKKA (sweet 16!), Tita Kate, NOODLES (29!!!), Tita G (48 I think?), JACKIE (15!), Tito R, NIKKI (23???) and JON (31! boohoooo! ur old na! lol)

HAPPY GRADUATION as well to RENZ and KIM!

My cousin graduated from High School last Saturday and it was an eventful day for the family. Everything turned out okay with some minor setbacks.

A certain Mrs.Lim or her maiden name pala is Ms.Baloja daw from Evergreen State Academy, approached my Tita G to set up a "so-called meeting" regarding some petty issues mainly rumors and hearsays around the campus. For weeks, my Tita G informed me about how some parents (I know who they are) in that school tried to create some hullabaloo of some sort. I listened to it every single day. Frankly, I got tired of listening to the same old bullshit that I keep on hearing regarding their school's issues.

It's none of my concern but then again Tita G is a part of my family. Therefore, anyone who tries to mess with her will have to deal with me also.

Last February 2009 during their HS Night, Tita G and the rest of the parents were asked to wait for their kids in the parents lounge. I was with her along with 5 others (i think...). Mrs.Lim arrived with her chihuahua (maid) 5 minutes later. They both entered the HS night venue inside Jade's Garden. The school staff told us that parents are not allowed in that place that was why we were at the parents lounge. Some parents reacted to what they saw. Some said "O...Bakit yon nakapasok? Akala ko ba hanggang dito lang?"

We waited for quite a while thinking na maybe lalabas sila agad. We automatically assumed na baka hinatid niya lang anak niya inside but we were wrong. They intended to stay there talaga. I was the first one to follow her. When I was there I said to the teachers inside Jade's Garden -- "Papasok na ako ha, andito sya eh..." (I pointed at her coz in my opinion, if someone decided to break the rules then gagawin ko din - fair trade).

As soon as I was busy taking snapshots at the said event, all the parents followed me. They gathered near the canteen area to get a glimpsed of their kids. Tita G said "Ma'm Cory, makikigaya na rin kami sa pumasok" and technically there was nothing wrong to what she said because they were just there following the first parent who entered Jade's Garden. As they were ogling their kids, I heard Mrs.Lim said to her chihuahua "andito na ang mga usi."

Technically, I don't think that remark was intended for everybody to hear kasi she was sort of whispering it to her chihuahua eh. What she didn't expect siguro was that I was too close sa kanilang dalawa. I heard it. I stared at her and then they both disappeared sa side. When they came back a minute later, I was totally shocked to hear her saying "Gaya-Gaya, Puto-Maya."

Damn! I never heard anyone using that kind of remark to someone since I was in grade 1. She was saying that from the back of the pack. Fortunately, I and another parent don sa group overheard her. We were both stupified - in a sense - na what the hell was that about???

We told what we heard and some parents including my Tita G got heated up. Tita G and some parents started making innuendos the whole night.

A few weeks later, this twat was telling some parents in school that she wanted to confront Tita G about some issues she heard daw. She keeps saying to those "other" parents (again - kilala ko sila but I won't mention their freakin' names kasi they don't matter na rin) na Tita G is a friend of hers, an old friend of my maternal side of the family. They were childhood friends daw and that she has no idea why ganon daw si Tita G sa kanya. The old paawa stuff.

My Tita G tells me everything about anything sa school including those people who keeps on backstabbing her.

FIRST AND FOREMOST, if friend ka ng family namin then those kind of petty stuff should have never happened in the first place.

SECOND, if you're not someone who craves a lot of attention for herself and for her daughter then YOU ought to know how to value friendships. She used to call Tita G's house para lang makipagtsismisan regarding the who's and who's not ng school.

THIRD, Tita G never created any kind of rumors sa school. Most of what she knows eh galing din sa school. We heard a lot of issues regarding that twat pero Tita G never created or started anything na related sa kanya. She's the one who keeps blabbing about nonsequential stuff sa school.

One parent from HS told Tita G na gusto daw siya confront ni Mrs.Lim. This parent wanted Tita G to talk to Mrs.Lim para daw settle yung issues which is funny because why would Tita G settle something na hindi big deal sa kanya. This parent said na PARA DAW KAY GOD magbati na sila -- THAT'S BULLSHIT! Why the hell na dapat isama ang name ni God sa ganyan because if you care sa gusto ni GOD in the first place dapat walang chismisan or doubts ka sa isang kaibigan. (DAMN! this parents should go back sa kanilang RELIGION classes ng grade school).

During the graduation night, we were happy that Gilbert graduated HS. We were tired and hungry by the time the ceremony ended. MIND YOU - I get crabby when I'm starving. We were waiting for my cousins na matapos sa mga photo sessions with friends when Mrs.Lim approached my Tita G.

TAKE NOTE: I have no idea why andon siya that night. Hindi graduating ang anak niya or anyone else na related sa kanya. They were just there. The teachers in ESA weren't fond of her presence kasi nga she's a VACUUM CLEANER na hinihigop ang lakas ng mga teachers sa ESA.

This was what she said to TITA G:

TWAT: Mrs.Saroca, Ging, pwede ka ba makausap

TITA G: Oi..

TWAT: Kilala mo ba ako???

TITA G: Eh ako kilala mo???

What kind of idiotic person would say na friends sila and sasabihin niya na KILALA MO BA AKO? Ano yon panakot effect. I raised my eyebrow when I heard that.

She wanted to set up a meeting daw regarding some issues and she wanted to know when and where daw. Ayaw niya now magconfront because she didn't want to destroy our night daw with Gilbert's graduation and all. DAMN! MOCHAFRAPPECHOCOLATTE WHIPPED CREAM ON TOP! LOL! If you didn't want to ruin our night then hindi ka na dapat nag-approached non. Kung professional ka talaga, you ought to know when is the BEST POSSIBLE TIME to hear this kind of crap. ALSO, kung INTELLIGENT kang tao you would know kung PETTY or not ang issue na nilalapit mo. Tita G was like - wala akong time and ano bang issues?

This was where I noticed a lot of loopholes sa statements niya...meaning maraming hindi tumatama sa katotohanan.

I got heated up and told her na wala kaming time kasi vacation namin. We kept on asking her ano ang issues and she kept on saying na NEXT TIME NA LANG but she heard a lot of issues daw na sinabi ni Tita G or should I say kinalat ni Tita G sa kanya. SO, I said again (for like the 4th time) anong issues????

She couldn't pinpoint the exact issues basta puro marami lang daw. And then, she said according daw sa isang person, against daw si Tita G na anak niya nanalo na PROM QUEEN. Then it dawned me, it was about the HS night last February. We asked her sino nagsabi na si Tita G nagsabi non -- she couldn't name the person. I insisted na she should name the person and she mentioned or should I say name dropped a certain teacher in ESA. (funny, kasi hindi nakakausap ni Tita G yon about that... lol). We asked her to call the teacher and marami siyang reasons kesyo BUSY yon. FUCK! if you wanted to know the truth then hindi ka magdadalawang isip na tawagin yung teacher since we were still in the school.

FYI MRS.LIM: Hindi Against si Tita G sa anak mo as PROM QUEEN. MOST of the parents that night were asking why sa 3rd YEAR binigay ang award sana sa 4th year na lang since they're graduating na rin lang. YON LANG! Some parents had their bets kasi that night kung sino ang dapat maging prom queen just as you had. I'm sure bet mo anak mo right? So, yung ibang parents bet nila yung anak ng friend nila. SO WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THAT? Opinion nila yon, if you can't accept that then ignore them. AS SIMPLE AS THAT!

She then said na according sa chihuahua niya, yung mga parents daw (meaning "us") ang unang nagparinig sa HS night sa kanilang 2. Again nagnamedropped sya ng person na wala don, her chihuahua. I didn't actually believed na hindi niya kasama yung chihuahua niya that time sa school kasi they're always together. She said hindi daw niya kasama eh and nag-iisa lang daw sya so dapat kami ni Tita esp ME hindi sumisigaw. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT??? I AM TELLING THE TRUTH SO WHY THE HELL WOULD I LOWER DOWN MY VOICE. I WANTED EVERYBODY TO HEAR WHAT I'M SAYING SO OTHERS CAN TELL SINO SA AMIN ANG SINUNGALING.

I got really pissed off kasi napakaredundant niya. If you're telling the truth then hindi dapat maraming segway. Straight to the point ang facts mo not puro HEARSAYS, NAMEDROPPING and sabi ni ganito and ganyan. Sinasayang niya oras namin kasi we were tired and hungry na that time. I was also heated up for another reason. She forgot na ako yung person na kasunod niya sa HS NIGHT. I was the one who overheard all the innuendos nila. THE FIRST ONE. I retold the story sa kanya and she was finding some ways na malusutan yon. She said "pumunta kami sa flagpole kay Ma'am Cory when the parents followed us." FREAKIN' SHIT! I WAS THERE! Before they disappeared I overheard her saying the "USI" word and when she came back yung "Gaya-Gaya, Puto-Maya" naman. LIAR pa sya because the person she was telling na pinuntahan niya sa flagpole was in the canteen that time. I saw that person doon so howcome andon yon sa flagpole. huh???

Oh and she also mentioned na mas gusto daw niya makipag usap sa ibang time pero may presence ng PARENTS and TEACHERS. I was flabbergasted. I was like HUH???? ETO NA YON! MAY PARENTS AND TEACHERS SA SCHOOL. When pa yung best possible time na yon? VACATION NA...that night was the best time to talk about it. (she still wanted us na wag sumigaw...)

Now tell me sino ang LIAR? Sino ang chismosa? Sino ang papansin? Sino ang gumagawa ng issue?

If I wanted to share here sa blog ko mga ginagawa niya sa school baka magulat ang buong ESA students. Ang daming issues sa kanya na naririnig namin but we never started it. Nakarating lang kay Tita G yon tulad ng sa ibang parents.

Obviously, she tried to avoid the conversation when I started shouting at her and telling her na sinungaling siya. She left us doon and went to a school staff para magtanong ng "YEARBOOK???" Duh! 3rd year pa lang anak niya, incoming 4th year - ang aga naman niya magtanong para sa yearbook. Ano yon escape goat? I wasn't going to backdown that night. If she didn't leave non, marami pang pwedeng nasabi and I won't regret it. I don't care if she said bastos ako or hyper ako magsalita because what I'm saying that night was THE TRUTH.

Hindi ako part ng school nila everyday but I know what I heard nung HS night. I know who started the innuendos. I have no reason para magcreate lang ng story just for the sake na makisali ako sa away. I know what I saw and I know what I heard. Hindi ako pinalaking sinungaling ng family ko. If she can flat out lie about some stuff na nangyari that night then sino sa amin ngayon ang nakakahiya. She's 40+ years old. I'm 28 years old. I don't care about the age differences. I don't care ko kung naging bastos ako sa kanya because kabastos-bastos naman kasi siya. I don't just give respect to everybody. Just like everyone else, you have to show me something worth respecting para respetuhin kita. I wouldn't be my father's daughter kung hindi ko nakuha ang kalahati ng temper niya. If my father and I can fight about what I think is right and wrong sa mga ginagawa niya, I can certainly be harsh to someone like you - someone I don't even know. IF YOU REALLY KNOW ME and my family as what you said sa ibang parents then dapat kilala mo ano ugali ng father ko and temperaments ng maternal side ko. We're quiet most of the time but don't ever start a fight with me or with anyone in my family if you don't want to get burned.

She approached my Tita G in an unprofessional way and if she insists na professional yon then backwards ang utak niya. She ought to know - kung family friend talaga siya ng family ko - once you mess with one of us - everybody else will retaliate.

Tita G is a family. If she gets involve in any issues sa school then I'm making it mine as well.

If you're miserable as a child and you need a lot of attention then that's okay. BE WHO YOU ARE pero wag ka mandamay ng tao. GET YOUR FACTS STRAIGHT (kung professional ka alam mo dapat yan).

Nakakahiya ka naman and I pity your daughter kasi nadadamay siya sa issues na ikaw rin ang may gawa. Everybody's been talking about YOU. Teachers and parents alike maraming may ayaw syo. Masyado ka daw papansin kaya lahat ginagawa mo. Even those na wala na sa ESA na teachers maraming sinasabi about you. DAPAT SILA ANG CONFRONT MO.

As for the other parents who tried to create some issues regarding my TITA, kilala ko kayo. It's a good thing kilala ko mga anak niyo and they're friends with my cousins. Kayo-kayo nagsisiraan - what kind of an idiotic person are you kung ganyan din ginagawa mo sa iba?

That night, nakalimutan na rin namin yung issue. We celebrated and talked the whole night. It was okay. Somehow, I feel good about it kasi I have no regrets sa mga sinabi ko sa person na yon. She needed to hear it para makalabog naman ang conscience niya.

As for those who know what happened that night or kilala yung person na tinutukoy ko dito -- then now you know what really happened kung nakarinig man kayo ng arguments sa labas ng canteen. IF BY ANY CHANCE, some poor sucker will let you read this and I can pretty much guess sino ang possible person yon since kilala ko mga naka-add sa akin LOL - THEN LEARN FROM UR OWN MISTAKE! AYUSIN MO MUNA MGA DAPAT MO AYUSIN SA PERSONAL MO NA BUHAY INCLUDING YOUR DAUGHTER BAGO MO PAKIALAMAN ANG BUHAY NG IBA. ALAMIN MO MUNA ANG IBIG SABIHIN NG FRIENDSHIP BAGO MO SABIHIN NA FRIEND MO ANG TITA G KO SAME GOES TO THOSE PARENTS NA FRIENDS DAW PERO NAGKAKALAT DIN NAMAN NG LAGIM SA SCHOOL.

May ayaw ka sa sinabi ko sa blog na 'to??? FEEL FREE TO COMMENT BITCH! (I call men bitches too you know)

** DARN IT! Now I have to make another blog for my cousins' graduation and my march highlights without you in it. LOL.

Last February 26, 2009, My friends and I decided to celebrate Mariel's 23rd Birthday. A week before that, I had some problems to take care of and decided to skip the said celebration. Mariel and some friends of mine insisted that I should be there. For days, I held back my decision until I was pretty sure that I could make it. The funny thing about it was that I knew already - even before they insisted for me to join them - that I would be there to celebrate Mariel's post birthday bash. I already bought her a gift which was something that I never planned to do. I opted for scented candles from Trinoma but I was too lazy to travel in Quezon City. I bought her gift in SM Bacoor. I also bought Angie and Dessa a "lucky" bracelet in Bead Shop. It is said to open up their horizon. LOL.

On that day, I went to meet my friends in Star City for a fun night out. Randy arrived first and went to sit at the back parking lot. I arrived 30 minutes after him. We talked for an hour about some random stuff which we rarely did during our College Years. It was a short conversation but I was able to get to know him in that short amount of time. It was memorable and interesting in some ways.

Mariel and Angie arrived an hour after I arrived. We went inside Star City to fully enjoy our night while waiting for Dessa (who arrived 2 hours late). We took pictures everywhere. I didn't join them in most of their riding adventures because I was in no mood and in no condition to ride anything.

We also went to Snow World. There was nothing extravagant in that place except that it was really cold...freezing cold. They took turns in the icy slides while I waited and watched them. It was actually funny to see them sliding and screaming like crazy. Fun and memorable to watch.

When we got tired of all the riding adventures, the REAL NIGHTOUT began. The 5 of us went straight to Nakpil and looked for a bar to hangout with. We were supposed to go either at Cafe Adriatico or Cafe Havana but then Mariel saw BEDROCK and changed our mind that same moment. I really have no idea why we chose that place. It was like someone from up there begged for us to go there talaga. We're not even sure kung anong meron sa place na yon that night.

When we entered the bar, the place was cozy and not that spaceous. It was also a little dark inside. I surveyed the place once we got in and noticed that there were a lot of foreigners and their pinay love ladies inside but it wasn't one of those "cheap" bars with lots of noisy and uneducated people doing nasty stuff. BedRock is actually a pretty cool place. The people naman are decent. The first band performing played mostly oldies and mellow songs.

The rest of us ordered a huge platter of different kinds of finger foods - from fries, sausages, chicken wings - the works! Mariel and I ordered frozen margaritas to spiced up our mood. The others settled for non-alcoholic beverages. We talked, took pictures and even with loud music - we had a great time. Our waiter was so friendly pa. LOL.

However, when the 2nd band started performing onstage, things began to change. The moods of everybody on our table went from MELLOW to WILD and CRAZY lol.

The band's vocalist looks really hunky. We all thought his name was Jay but just last night I found out from a friend of mine that his name is actually BRADLEY. Wow! He has the rocker voice -- sort of like Chad Kroeger and he's sporting tattoos all over his arms and neck. I'm not into that kind of guy pero ma-ooverlooked mo yon sa kanya because of his voice. He's also very friendly to the audience.

We requested a couple of songs for him to sing. I gave a couple of bucks for the requests. He sang LIPS OF AN ANGEL for Mariel - the birthday girl and he even greeted her THRICE (as requested). SUPER KILIG naman kami!

Take note: He even noticed yung penmanship nung nagsulat ng request. Maganda daw... LOL. I wrote it but we let them think na yung isang friend namin nagsulat because she's already "hooked" to the vocalist.

Sobrang into "BRADLEY" mode si Dessa that she couldn't stop staring at him. She was actually blushing at one point kahit madilim it was pretty obvious. I decided to take the necessary step by asking our waiter to give Bradley my "secret message" LOL...

I asked him for another request pero this time I wrote in that tiny piece of tissue paper (how classy lol) na dedicated yung request na yon sa kanya by DESSA. Hahahaha....

That did it...By the time their female vocalists was crooning Rihanna's Disturbia, Brad went to our table and introduced himself. TAKE NOTE: Kami lang ang pinuntahan niya na table that night. He even mentioned "us" a couple of times. He kept saying about don sa "those at the back" please join us...(kami lang naman kasi maingay technically sa back). I guess naging motivation nila yon to jam because we were so into their music.

Brad went to our table to invite everyone to dance onstage. Dessa and Mariel were pretty wild that night after a couple of frozen margaritas, vodka cruisers and screwdrivers - and to think hindi naman masyado nakakalasing yon. They danced onstage! Dessa did the unthinkable -- she danced sexy and so did Mariel (KODAK MOMENT) LOL.

It was sooo fun. SOBRA. When their set was finished everything turned mellow again. We ordered another batch of finger foodies and drinks. By 3:30am, we were dead tired and worried about Randy who was already sleeping on an empty backrow table LOL. May duty pa kasi siya the following day. We decided to go home na para makapagrest sya. We didn't get to hear Brad sing again sa next set nila. We also found out na yon na ang last appearance niya in BedRock. Awww....(sad kami...).

By 5 am, Mariel, Angie, Dessa and I decided to hangout in a 24hr fastfood joint. We had our early bfast there and nonstop sharing of insight regarding the nightout and of course -- our favorite topic that night - Si Bradley LOL.

I got home by 6 am, took a shower, eat another bunch of bfast then finally took a rest by 8 am. I woke up with a hangover from last night party. It was that bad. I wasn't even drunk pa non but sobrang sakit ng ulo ko. I decided to sleep the entire day. When I woke up, I talked to Jeff and asked him about Brad's band. Jeff knows a lot of band since dating band member din sya in his younger days LOL. We talked and I shared everything kanila Dessa and Mariel. We've been sending comments in friendster back and forth about Bradley...Hehehe...If ever totoo man yung sinasabi na pagnakakagat mo lips mo meaning may nakakaisip syo, Bradley's lips siguro wala ng color LOL.

Dessa's a sure fan. I'm pretty sure about that. Tawag ko na nga sa kanya now is BRADESSA lol. I'm also happy that Mariel had a great time on her post birthday celebration. It was definitely a fun nightout. A party of five -- but most definitely - one of the most fun nightout I had in years. Haayy...GOOD TIMES. GOOD TIMES...

BELATED HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY MARIEL!

I was a little worried this week about some certain stuff. A friend of mine decided to email me an article that eventually made my day a little okay. It really made me laugh. So I'm sharing this here for those who are sad or bored. Maybe, just maybe - It can make you laugh as well. ENJOY!

Pinoys are by nature creative and has a great sense of humor...

1. Parlor in San Juan is named "Cut & Face".
2. Wholesaler of balut in Sto.Tomas, Batangas: "Starduck's".
3. Fast food eatery in Nueva Ecija: "Violybee"
4. Internet cafe opened among squatters named "Cafe Pindot".
5. In Manila , there's a laundry named, "Summa Cum Laundry".
6. Petshop in Ortigas: "Pussies and Bitches".
7. A pet shop in Kamuning: "Pakita Mo Pet Mo".
8. Bakery: "Bread Pit".
9. Bank in Alabang: "Alabank".
10. Restaurant in Pampanga named, "Mekeni Rogers".
11. Restaurant in Pasig : "Johnny's Fried Chicken: The 'Fried' of Marikina".
12. A boxing gym: "Blow Jab".
13. A tombstone maker in Antipolo: "Lito Lapida".
14. A copy center in Sikatuna Village called "Pakopya ni Edgar".
15. A beerhouse in Cavite called, "Chickpoint" .
16. Laundromat in Sikatuna: " Star Wash : Attack of the Clothes".
17. Internet cafe in Taguig named, "n@kopi@".
18. Name of a kambingan, "Sa Goat Kita".
19. A salon somewhere, "Curl Up And Dye".
20. A lugawan in Sta. Maria, Bulacan: "Gee Congee".
21. A water refilling station in Dapitan named "Wa-Thirst".
22. A store selling feeds for chickens: "Robocock".
23. Shoe repair in Marikina : "Dr. Shoe-Bago".
24. Shoe repair store along Commonwealth, "SHOEPERMAN: we will HEEL you,
save your SOLE, and even DYE for you".
25. Petshop: "Petness First"
26. Flower shop: "Susan's Roses".
27. Taxicab: "Income Taxi".
28. A 2nd hand watch store: "2nd Time Around".
29. A squid stall in a wet market: "Pusit to the Limit".
30. A shrimp store: "Hipon Coming Back".
31. A gay lawyer's extension office: " Nota Republic ".
32. A ceiling installer: " Kisame Street ".
33. A car repair shop: "Bangga ka 'day?"
34. An aquatic pet store in Malolos: "Fish Be With You".
35. A fishball cart named, "Poke Poke".
36. A beauty salon: "Saudia Hairlines".
37. A bakery: "Anak Ng Tinapay".
38. A resto along Mayon road in Manila : "May Lisa Eatery".
39. Laundry shop: "Wash Your Problem".
40. This mobile massage business name isn't funny, but
their slogan is: "Asian Mobile Massage Service: Massage only, God is
watching".
41. Ice cream parlor: "Dila Lang Ang Katapat".
42. Chicharon store: "Chicha Hut".
43. Neighborhood pizza store: "Pizza Hot".
44. A fishball cart near UST: "Eat My Balls".
45. A barbershop in Cagayan de Oro: "Pinoy Big Barber".
46. A Resto: "The Last Supper".
47. A goto resto: "Goto Ko Pa!"
48. A peanut vendor's cart with a funny name: "Mani ni Papa".
49. A gym in Malolos: " Gaymann Fitness Center ".
50. My brother's party needs business: "Balloon-Balloonan" ..
51. A Chinese restaurant in Pasig : "Lah-Fang".
52. A store selling fresh chicken, owned by woman named Dina: "Dina Fresh
Chicken".
53. An actual bait and tackle shop in U.S. : "The Master Baiter".
54. Panaderia: "Trimonay Bakeshop".
55. Salon: "Hair Dot Comb".